A phantom limb is the sensation of feeling, sometimes painfully, the presence of a missing limb.
The last month was spent mentally readjusting to life without Baby Allegra. There is no longer a pressure to quickly return when I leave the house. No little bundle is waiting when I walk out of the bathroom. She's not sharing my pillow when I wake in the morning. And there is no weight on my lap as I write. Despite this month-old reality, I still find myself expecting her to be just out of sight. Not gone.
Although phantom limbs cannot be removed, the associated pain is usually intermittent and is supposed to decrease over time.