Monday, June 6, 2011


I wish the brain had better recall for smells and touch.  Unlike images and information, things affecting these senses seem forgotten until one again encounters something similar.

Because of this, countless times a day I run my nose along Allegra's profile hoping the smell of the pink lotion that has soaked her soft, fuzzy new skin will imprint somewhere in my brain's recesses.  Then, when my arms are empty, I will have clear memories of her smell and feel.

Elsewhere in my mind I have also spent time storing the feel of the soft pads on the bottom of Allegra's feet, the stiff grip of her fingers curled around mine, the weight and size of her bitty body, the fit of her left dimple under my pinkie, and the warm exhales of her sweet baby breath.


  1. This is one of my favorite pictures so far. Her precious tiny feet in her mothers hands say it all. I pray everyday for those feet to continue to grow and a family not asked to let go.

    We love you all,

    Jen and family

  2. look forward to reading this every single day. love you baby allegra.

  3. Dear Alison, your way of writing is so touching....

  4. Thank you, Ali, for sharing these intimate moments with Allegra. They make me want to slow down, to take more time to smell and touch the flowers in my garden before the blooms are gone.


  5. Never have a read such honest and heartfelt words from a mother. I am speechless at your bravery and want you to know that we are thinking of you every single day.
    Stephanie (Nick's mom)